Navigating the myriad roles of motherhood — disciplinarian, therapist, chef, maid, chauffeur, babysitter, and doctor, to name a few — can be tricky. Not to mention navigating the complex emotions surrounding (for me, recently) solo-parenting, which can be just as tricky. Then, as so happens in my case, throw self-employment in there and you have continuing education to consider, staying imaginative and inspired in my work, client management, keeping my home from falling to pieces, maintaining a shadow of a healthy diet, nurturing my insatiable wanderlust, and finding time for my friendships OUTSIDE of my work and covering the needs of my two sweet little boys.
I know I am not alone in this. Harmony can feel so elusive yet I find myself believing it is abundant and yet just out of my reach.. In this Chapter of my life I'm especially thankful for the understanding and patience that my close friends and my clients have had with me, the support of my younger sisters and the unconditional love of my two sons.
I need to remember that these are the moments in life that they will look back on. As much as I feel the need to hustle to make everything come together for the three of us I also need to remember to cut myself some slack, breathe, and be present. For myself and to myself, to my children, my clients, my friends and my family. Stop chasing balance and start embracing the ride that is my life. The two, small, wild humans that are in it think I am some sort of superhero and luckily I have a few more years till they get wise.
I suppose what I am really ranting about here is that allowing myself to be human and flawed really makes for a more peaceful, loving existence. The humans that see me will have the chance to really see me, and how else will strong and honest relationships be formed? Im on a mission to embrace the woman I am and I hope I find more of the genuine, real, good stuff along the way. We are all in this together, my friends.